Poorly Richard

Nursing my poorly Richard better, Took the day off work today to come see him. We had a horrible day of scare yesterday. It went from one minute saying they might let him home to then having him put in for a ct scan. It was a horrible day, a day of waiting and I hate that. His blood results came back with his liver not working properly, then found that his infection mark was up and got a high temperature so was then put on tablets for that. Cf scan result- after what seemed like forever, and a good several hours showed that his pancrease is inflamed but they do not know why. As far as we know that cancer hasn't got any worse and is still in the same place. Poor boy is on so much dis comfort, I've just managed to send him to sleep with some head tickling. He's nill by the mouth too, as they want to let his tummy settle but also until we find more information about what's going on. Let's just hope he doesn't have to go for an operation and is just being caused by the radiotherapy or infusion, or a combination of both. His eyes have gone all yellow as so has his face, doesn't look as bad as his eyes though. Wish I could make it all go away now.

Happy Memories // RICHARD

just adding some photos of my wonderful Richard, i just noticed this blog has a lot of writing these days and not so many photos. I think i will have to change that :) 

DONOR LYMPHOCYTE INFUSION // RICHARD

It's been some time since i have written on here again, I don't seem to know where the time goes. Saying that i am just so busy, i very rarely get to sit down and get on here.

Life has been pretty hard, i miss my grandpa like crazy, and I've been running around like a yo yo machine, I now work full time, at last, and run the farm, look after Grandma, still don't go round as much as i used to but i find it so hard with out Grandpa there. I try to spend as much time with Richard too, but as like tonight, i am missing out on snuggle times, as unfortunately was kept in at the hospital and is staying in over the weekend.

He had two lots of radiotherapy this week, yesterday (Thursday) and Today. And then having his DLI tomorrow, which is an infusion of the Cells from him Donor. Really hope this works, if this doesn't there is nothing else they can do for me. It gets scarier every time and every day. I wish it would go away. Richard has been poorly since the very beginning  i just want us to have a normal relationship now, that we have never been able to have. It's so heart breaking, we have this amazing future we want to have toegther, and i now i feel likw it's never going to happen, and that we will never get to do what we want. Life is so unfair, why does it always nig at the Nice people. Please work, pleaseee.


xxx