Day 98. Check up & scan // transplant

Its been a long day, and now we have a long two weeks wait until we can back go in for the results.

Richard had his usual check up, which has now been moved to a Wednesday. This is because he is now reaching his 100 days which means he's now in that next stage. He still obviously important but not as important as the people who are still in there 100 days. And literally just like that, it changes over night, just on that 100th day.

Appointment wasnt too long so we headed over to Glenfield hoping that Richard could get in to his scan abit earlier but it didn't work that way and I ended up sitting in the car, in the pouring rain waiting for him to come out. The appointment usually takes up to 2 hours, but with nothing to do and no where to go it felt like forever.
I'm so glad that today has been done with. Richard was just getting so worked up about it, taking about what if it doesn't work and what if he can't see the the future music, I was quite surprise at how much he was bothered about not being here to see the music in the future. It's weird how some people think, his Brian goes off in a Million directions and i have to really try and get him to turn his brain off. I know that's not easy, I know his next appointment is going to be a scary one. I don't know what I'd do if I was in his boat- knowing that this might not have worked is the scariest thing in the world for him- still it not hit me and I don't think it will until I hear that. I don't know how i feel. It's a strange feeling because part of me is just keeping positive that it is working, it has to be, that what we want but then I have this little voice in the back of my head telling its not worked. I try not to think about it so I can just take a day as it comes.

Day 93 // transplant

Were n the count down now.... it's nearly 100 days since Richard had his transplant. I can't believe how quickly the time has gone by.

 Richard is all booked for scan on Wednesday, which means he will get results a week after that. It hasn't really bothered me much but I know deep down poor Richard is stressing about the whole thing. Seein him worry does make me panick but I'm trying not to worry too much- I need to be there for him and to keep him as occupied as I can. The littlest thing, pain, ache or anything and his poor little brain sends off in to a million directions and he's worrying like anything. who can blame him, this is his life we are talking about.

I just so hope, for Richards sake that this is working. Ever since he got cancer in the first place and through his continuous treatment, it has literally just been bad news,  and after what did work, in the didn't, again was just heart breaking. I don't blame him for loosing hope- I mean even I have in some aspects but deep down, I honestly don't think too much about it. After all what's the point is worrying over something you don't know about yet, I know is easier said than done, but that's my job to keep Richard on his toes and hopefully keep him occupied as long as i can. I must say, the nerves do creep on me. I mean, if this was bad news, my whole world would be crashing down. Richard is my life, my best friends my lover and most of all, my soul mate. things arent prefect, but they are perfect in the way that they can be. We do fall out and argue, and wish this wasn't happening, but we cope, we manage and we keep fighting. That's true love.

Race for Life.

My wonderful sister and her friend Angelia, decided to do the race for life, and do it 3 legged. I  couldn't be more proud of them. They managed the whole 3k tied up and didn't fall over .... until the very end :)

Always look on the bright side of life...

a sad story

"Money can't buy you happiness ..."

People say that money can't buy you happiness, and i have always believed this because i have always had money, that I've never been with out it to realize just how much we actually need it. It's funny because I've always sworn by the money is nothing, it doesn't make me happy and i'd be okay with out it. turns out that's way far from the truth.