Day 98. Check up & scan // transplant

Its been a long day, and now we have a long two weeks wait until we can back go in for the results.

Richard had his usual check up, which has now been moved to a Wednesday. This is because he is now reaching his 100 days which means he's now in that next stage. He still obviously important but not as important as the people who are still in there 100 days. And literally just like that, it changes over night, just on that 100th day.

Appointment wasnt too long so we headed over to Glenfield hoping that Richard could get in to his scan abit earlier but it didn't work that way and I ended up sitting in the car, in the pouring rain waiting for him to come out. The appointment usually takes up to 2 hours, but with nothing to do and no where to go it felt like forever.
I'm so glad that today has been done with. Richard was just getting so worked up about it, taking about what if it doesn't work and what if he can't see the the future music, I was quite surprise at how much he was bothered about not being here to see the music in the future. It's weird how some people think, his Brian goes off in a Million directions and i have to really try and get him to turn his brain off. I know that's not easy, I know his next appointment is going to be a scary one. I don't know what I'd do if I was in his boat- knowing that this might not have worked is the scariest thing in the world for him- still it not hit me and I don't think it will until I hear that. I don't know how i feel. It's a strange feeling because part of me is just keeping positive that it is working, it has to be, that what we want but then I have this little voice in the back of my head telling its not worked. I try not to think about it so I can just take a day as it comes.