can't believe its been 10 days since i last wrote about Richard's last updates. It's been such a mad manic week, i can't believe how quickly the days have flown by...
I didn't get to see Richard over last weekend. I went to spend some time with my little sister over in Northampton, along with my friend Emma. Just needed something to do and a bit of time out space. People don't realize how tiring it is, having to be in my place. Had a relaxing time, and then my sister had a jewellery party on the Sunday- was nice to kind of feel normal for a bit again. But, not one minute goes by that i don't think about Richard or his situation.
Anyway, Richard mum and brother went to visit him on Sunday as it was Janet's birthday ( rich's mum), was hoping to get over too but i was late home and i felt so tired and sick, the minute i got home i went straight to bed. Unfortunately i didn't even get to see him on Monday either as i had to take my dad to his PET Scan at Glenfield, which went all okay. Were just awaiting for the results now, i hope for gods sake its all okay. I really cant cope with this again, not yet anyway.
Good news though, Richard texted me on Monday saying he would be coming home that week, possibly Tuesday or Wednesday depending on how he is doing and how his results are. He started getting pains with his stomach acid, because they took him off his acid tablets. they did this to try and get his stomach to near as normal as possible. something to do with the medicine kills of his friendly bacteria that he needs, if this happens it makes things worse in the long run??? yeah i don't get any of it tbh. Poor Richard though, his acid is giving him so much grief he was struggling to eat.
On Tuesday morning. he found out that his neutrophills were 5.4, anything above 5 means fab. This means his body should be makings everything work again properly :) The doctors were then going to put him on steroids and take him off is antibiotics... he's was finally starting to show some improvements again, it was such an up lifting moment :) he was happy, you could tell it, in his voice.
Richard is also at his Graft V Host as well, this is all good. However they can only let it happen so much. If it goes over board then its not good.
During all this time, we have both also been looking for engagement rings, its been sad because we cant go shopping together to choose one, means everything will have to be done different, but that's okay. I can cope with that, it might not be my ideal dream that we all have when we grow up, but i guess this makes it extra special in away.
Found out on Tuesday morning that Richard was allowed to go home very unexpected, i couldn't believe it. Meant in me having to do a last major car hoover so i could actually bring him home for once and for the first time. Couldn't have been more happier. So anyway, i went over to see him at normal time, helped him pack the last bits and took what seemed like the longest trip back and fourth to the car with his stuff. Anyone would think he'd just got back from holiday, seeing it all loaded up in my car. I did it though and after a long day, he finally got his tablets at 6.30 and off home we went. :)
Wednesday i was finally going to see richard at home and finally get snuggles in bed again, even though i was pretty scared like. Today was Alan's Birthday (richy's little brother) and was a litte visit from the queen in satmford, Which my gran and i went to see. Oh, she was so beautiful, had a police man standing in front of me, more to the left so was able to get a good view of the queen heading my direction. Took a guess at taking a photo and took it a tiny bit too early, but, it was take a good photo and risk not seeing her looking, or just take a quick piccy, and make sure i see her. Which now i am glad i did, because her face was so lit up with her smile, and even though it would had made the best photo, seeing her was more important. After all, not like you get to see her everyday hey. Shen was gone before i knew it, so quickly i had to question my self to whether i had actually seen her or not. Her big smiley face is still as clear in my memory.
some how i can't save the zoom on the photo, but when you see it, you can see her very well :)
Spent the night at Richard's on Wednesday night, was so so nice to have him back and snuggles in bed again. I can't believe he is home, i can't believe how quickly the last 4 weeks have gone. Seemed like yesterday when it all started happening, but then in some ways, it doesn't.
Richards been on the internet and found a lovely engagement ring that we both like the design on, we've been chatting about it and decided on either sapphire or Emerald. i love both colours so that turns out really well. Richard found a lovely jewelleries on the internet and rang them about the ring. He had an appointment with the designer on the Thursday to discuss and design the ring to fit his budget, style and ect. Turned out that emerald isn't a very good stone, now i should have remembered this from working in a jewellery shop for a year. emerald is a really brittle stone, and breaks easily. Not suitable for my way of life, which means i would constantly have to keep taking it off, well that's not worth it for an engagement ring that should be worn all the time.
Richard had a check up on friday, all went okay, got to go back on Monday for the next check up.Apparently it will be a long while yet before we even know if this transplant has worked or not... we just have to hope that the 3 months scan doesn't show any worse than the last scan or it's going to be very upsetting, it will mean it's not worked. It's okay, if they still see a few bits showing up as there is still plenty if time for the new cells to fight it off. So, it will be more nearer the 6 months to when we will know more. More waiting around an more gambling. He's also got to be very sensible, and not mix with too many people and do as he's told and he should be okay. He's got to go back twice a week for the time being.....
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night night. time for bed.
