Were n the count down now.... it's nearly 100 days since Richard had his transplant. I can't believe how quickly the time has gone by.
Richard is all booked for scan on Wednesday, which means he will get results a week after that. It hasn't really bothered me much but I know deep down poor Richard is stressing about the whole thing. Seein him worry does make me panick but I'm trying not to worry too much- I need to be there for him and to keep him as occupied as I can. The littlest thing, pain, ache or anything and his poor little brain sends off in to a million directions and he's worrying like anything. who can blame him, this is his life we are talking about.
I just so hope, for Richards sake that this is working. Ever since he got cancer in the first place and through his continuous treatment, it has literally just been bad news, and after what did work, in the didn't, again was just heart breaking. I don't blame him for loosing hope- I mean even I have in some aspects but deep down, I honestly don't think too much about it. After all what's the point is worrying over something you don't know about yet, I know is easier said than done, but that's my job to keep Richard on his toes and hopefully keep him occupied as long as i can. I must say, the nerves do creep on me. I mean, if this was bad news, my whole world would be crashing down. Richard is my life, my best friends my lover and most of all, my soul mate. things arent prefect, but they are perfect in the way that they can be. We do fall out and argue, and wish this wasn't happening, but we cope, we manage and we keep fighting. That's true love.
Richard is all booked for scan on Wednesday, which means he will get results a week after that. It hasn't really bothered me much but I know deep down poor Richard is stressing about the whole thing. Seein him worry does make me panick but I'm trying not to worry too much- I need to be there for him and to keep him as occupied as I can. The littlest thing, pain, ache or anything and his poor little brain sends off in to a million directions and he's worrying like anything. who can blame him, this is his life we are talking about.
I just so hope, for Richards sake that this is working. Ever since he got cancer in the first place and through his continuous treatment, it has literally just been bad news, and after what did work, in the didn't, again was just heart breaking. I don't blame him for loosing hope- I mean even I have in some aspects but deep down, I honestly don't think too much about it. After all what's the point is worrying over something you don't know about yet, I know is easier said than done, but that's my job to keep Richard on his toes and hopefully keep him occupied as long as i can. I must say, the nerves do creep on me. I mean, if this was bad news, my whole world would be crashing down. Richard is my life, my best friends my lover and most of all, my soul mate. things arent prefect, but they are perfect in the way that they can be. We do fall out and argue, and wish this wasn't happening, but we cope, we manage and we keep fighting. That's true love.
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