after a nice weekend away with my sister and some friends i went back to see Richard today. Unfortunately when i was away he was really poorly on Saturday. found it really hard being so far away, having no contact with and not knowing if he was okay, what was happening or what was going on. He had a bad reaction to some medicine he was on/or something like that. He had a very bad headache, was really poorly and very sick :( Poor Boy. Richard Mum went over to look after him which i didn't know until she was home later that evening. Just wished i'd know earlier in the day, i wouldn't have worried so much and tried to of enjoyed my time a bit more. I needed a break. We don't get to have a normal life.
we never get to do normal things, cant go out on the piss like he used to, i've been with him for nearly 4 years now and never have i really been out with all of him friends, hung out with them or anything, by the time he's better its going to be so strange because we've just not had that normal life is so long, its like i've actually forgotten what a normal life is?
Anyway. back to my visit today, considering he had such a bad day on Saturday and was a little better last night, he did really well today. I was really pleased for him. We managed a good old natter, both had a little kip, then chatted. HE went to sleep again and then we watched home and away :) then his mum showed up so had a catch up and a natter with her too.
Poor rich tried so hard not to get all emotional again before i left, saying he was sorry for putting me through this all. But the thing is, we were just friends when it happens. I let us get together, and i chose to be with him. Funny how life goes. He keeps talking about Portugal and how he wants to take me away again, and we will go on holiday when he's better. Hoping that's giving him something to keep him going for the next 6 months or so.....
night night
x
Being with some one who has cancer doesn't just change the little things, it changes everything, it changes your whole life, an I mean everything in it....
we never get to do normal things, cant go out on the piss like he used to, i've been with him for nearly 4 years now and never have i really been out with all of him friends, hung out with them or anything, by the time he's better its going to be so strange because we've just not had that normal life is so long, its like i've actually forgotten what a normal life is?
Anyway. back to my visit today, considering he had such a bad day on Saturday and was a little better last night, he did really well today. I was really pleased for him. We managed a good old natter, both had a little kip, then chatted. HE went to sleep again and then we watched home and away :) then his mum showed up so had a catch up and a natter with her too.
Poor rich tried so hard not to get all emotional again before i left, saying he was sorry for putting me through this all. But the thing is, we were just friends when it happens. I let us get together, and i chose to be with him. Funny how life goes. He keeps talking about Portugal and how he wants to take me away again, and we will go on holiday when he's better. Hoping that's giving him something to keep him going for the next 6 months or so.....
night night
x
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